We meet, when one of us is troubled..and we admit it all..
Do we depart when our troubles seem unimportant ?
Over the last month (or more) i have whined a lot, been frustrated (yeah yeah this is my favourite word probably), been touchy, angry, overwhelmed, been adored,been respected, shared my troubles, have tried to share them atleast, heard a lot of troubles (esp those involving girls 😛 )
What makes us talk to a complete stranger so easily? What makes us trust them, especially in the virtual world? In the real world I admit i might not trust people easily, it takes time in my case. Yes I’d be friendly, helpful and everything..but trusting someone is not easy.. I can’t trust them with everything I say, sometimes I wonder what people might make of it, and how they might take things i tell them, or they could use it against me or spread it around..and then i wonder, Why would someone do that?
Yes these are all silly thoughts..But how do you judge a person?
I have a tendency (good or bad) of looking at a person’s positive side. Sometimes I’m made to realise that its foolish to so-by overlooking certain negative aspects….Yes it does makes me more accepting, but does that make me an easy prey?
But on the whole its mostly the intution, the vibes that I share with a person that matter to me. I can talk to just about anyone, but I’ve become choosy when it comes to people. Ok maybe not choosy, but yes I do see myself expecting people to adapt to my moods, that’s cause I’ve done the same many a times. But that doesn’t happen, and I’m branded as someone I never intend to be. Its just an observation (thats also my fav. line some of u know tht :P) and No i haven’t fought with anyone.
Believe me, this post is confusing me more than it’s probably confusing you now..But as much as this space has become a public place, its still my own little zone for venting my feelings out. I’m no longer stranger to a lot of you and its comforting to know that a few of you can be so patient 🙂
On a lighter note..
Today I felt like a baby, taking her first few steps. Yes..my first few wobbly steps..unbalanced, asking for help, staring around in nervous confusion, smiling at my own abilities, blushing at my lack of it…taking small little steps..holding the side bars, almost slipping here and there a few times, the loud screams (oh mumaaa! ahh ahh ehhh ) saved from a major fall..
Yes i went for ice skating for the first time.
And it was quite irritating to see my little cousin waltz around, act like a cool dude with one leg up and still skating, while i somehow managed not to fall! And then my sister, kept falling, almost made me fall a couple of times..tried to dance once holding the side bar..didn’t succeed there too! But I plan to go again and have a go at it again.
Go karting was fun too, I’m surprised why I no longer have enthusiasm for stuff like bowling, karting etc. Remember the days when these were the happening attractions in town, we’d all jump up in excitement..Fun ways to unwind, we seem to be so busy with what occupies our mind uppermost that we forget about these attractions life has to offer–big and small.