Do people "get drunk" because they want to be in that state? Where they can let loose..forget about their "so called sorrows?"
How many of us face real sorrows in life?
Someone told me once…you’ve got no worries, all superficial ones…stop cribbing..there are people in this world in a worse condition..
Words keep coming back to me..just words.
Today I finally calculated all the credit card slips I had carefully tucked away in my wallet. The amount that i totalled made me feel really small inside. Made me realize to some extent the value of money…the value of my dad’s hard earned money. And what he might have thought when he must have totalled his expenses at some point of time in his life..and then thought of earning his living. And then thought of his dad’s money..and then supporting his wife, his children. The amount i withdrew in the past 3 months (with most of it for living and eating) made me feel guilty, slightly aghast and very very small.
On personal goals, I dont build too many of them. There’s something in my mind always stopping me from aiming too high. I’ve learnt some, improved some.. but not drastically..without being too hard on myself, I think I’m probably capable of much better, performed well on certain occassions but somehow I always felt like ‘thats no big deal’ despite some people treating me like god for helping them out. Why am I not proud of myself? I’m not sad right now or unhappy, but unconsciously I always feel later on that ‘ I could have done much better’. Is it that competition has made me like this? Or can I not handle the fact that I am going fine and just need to buck up. I haven’t done anything out of the way,or am I comparing myself too much? One can’t help comparing themselves unconsciously, but I wish I could overcome a few personal hurdles to get better than what I am…How do i learn to acknowledge myself?
Our resident brand ambassador said something today which caught my mind… Cynicism and is one of the negatives of today’s youth (or something on that line..but basically he meant that)
Coming back to the drinking…how do people manage to behave ‘drunk’ and get their ‘sorrows’ out?!
Home’s calling and on a personal note again I’m gonna miss somethings and some people..especially my crush material professors (i can think of 3 right now!) teeheee